Where am I?
I really have no idea. I guess the bigger question is, where am I going? I'm living in Plano, working as an engineer and hardly enjoying it. The paycheck is nice, but that's one of the few perks. My ideal of me isn't a guy who works a mediocre job just because it provides a nice paycheck, but isn't that who I'm supposed to be? I feel unfulfilled, but I have a greater feeling of ungratefulness.
I've always felt like everything I do should have a purpose and I don't feel that I have much purpose right now. And certainly, if my purpose is just to go to work and get paid every other Thursday, then I don't want any part of that. It's boring and seems like a waste of time in the grand scheme of things. I understand that money is important and all that, but I also know that working as an engineer who rarely uses his education is only one of many ways to earn it.
I think it's time for a change, but I don't know what kind or how drastic. I think I'm going to look into acting again, but the odds aren't in my favor on that one. Tone is sometimes difficult to convey and I'm pretty sure the tone of this post is pretty whiney. But how I'm actually feeling is more uncertain and a little melancholy. Anyway, it's time to start getting ready for bed, I have to be up early for work.